20th of May 2005
 
ORAL WARMINGS
 
Hi people;
As you all know by now we are leaving the show very soon, in August one day before the end of the middle of the month. Before I get too boring we are leaving on the 14th of August. And I am worried because since that fact has settled down in my brain my whole discipline in the show has change. I have not noticed until yesterday. In between the shows I was told I had to see Mark and Gene and that only means trouble.
So I waited and jut five minutes before the beginning of the second show Mark asked us to go to his office and there we went. Nothing important, the rubber doll was getting too long and we had to be careful because there are more people taking cues from the number and … anyway at cirque you cannot improvise. I knew that and I knew I was wrong. The thing the whole thing was funny and it is very upsetting that they do not see that it is funny and that it deserves to be in the show. Anyway I am talking about my sudden luck of discipline.
It started really the day I did not attend my appointment with the Doctor and trapped in things I did not go. So I knew that I was going to get a penalty but I did not know when so Mark approached to me like three weeks later and he gave me an ORAL WARMING. I was really embarrassed. I had never got one in two years and my first one was not easy. After that I go another one and I am sure that if I do not control myself this is the begging of the end. Soon I will be getting a written warning and then suspension.
It is so tempted to be naughty and go all the way, cross the line of the forbidden world and leave the show like and outlaw. I am scared but tempted.
Have fun.