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    It is Toby´s birthday. He is 42 years old today and he has called up or better he has sent one of those big sms messagess that go to many people calling upon every body in his phonebook to be in Brighton at the Couch and Horses at 8:30 for drinks.Happy Birthday TOby.I am not going. I have to rehearsh and I have to rehearsh next day and then I have a show a performance the next day doing an Opera at Wilton´s Musich Hall. I am sure the gathering is going to be really nice. Mainly because it is going to be full of very nice people well, that would not be the most acurate description of the people that I think are going to be there but I like them how they are. And I am sure everybody is going to get really drunk.I can not get drunk anymore because I am drinking too much.But lets stop talking about me and lets talk about Toby. Of course I have called him to wish him a very nice day. He told  me he had lunch with his mum, his wife and Noa. Maja had another birthday party. And then they went to see a train, the blue berry train that seems to be a very tipical piece of old english train. He was going after wards for drinks and he seemed to be in very nice a good spirits.Last time I was in Tobys birthday we went to have dinner to a horrible restaurant in Brighton called the Iguana, is good this time they do not go back there. Happy Birthday Toby. 

   London is not doubt about it the best place in the world to see shows. I went to see a show this afternoon with Hanes at the Barbican. The show was called Boris Goudonov. It was done by the russian company of Check by Jawl or Check by jewl or something similar. They are very good. I saw a production of Fuenteovejuna that they did many years ago and it was fucking great. It was one of the best shows I have ever seen in my entire life.Anywya, the whole thing was sold out so I went earlier to be at the cue and I got a ticket, 25 pounds. So the show was good thou a little bit two heavy. In show like that you really need to have nice moments of laughs because if not you will be completely bored and worried. The show was full of russians who I could not stop thinking were members of the mafia. Sorry for being so racist. And when the play finished I went to Angel and I met Gislane. She is the old administrator from Told by and Idiot and very kindly offered me two tickets to go to see Myth at Sadler’s Wellsh. I do not know how to spell it so forgive me for my ignorance. It is a piece of comtemporary dance made by Sidi al Cherkaui. It was really good. It was really inspiring and exciting and difficult and funny and prefectly done and very good. So in a day I saw two shows that are world class both in less that two km apart in distance. That is the good thing about London.

   Yes I know this is extrange but I have to tell you that things with the blog are nos as easy as they seem. You try to make a comitment. In fact it happens to me quite often that I try to make a comitment and then I am not able to comite completely because well yes I have problems with comitment and it is very difficult to fullfill to complete any comitment. So you can see that there are many things in my life the blog one of them that I have not been able to commite completely. So what I am trying to say is that I am not able to write one eveyday.The other day I did some and I realised that the font was very big. I tryed to do something about it and I could nto do anything about it thou I tried I tried really hard. And then there are many other problems like trying to line the photografs on top of the writting.And then if you add all those things to all my problems with comitment then this blog is never going to happen. So I do not know what to say things are never easy.

It is tired to be on the streets all the time and that is exactly what I have been doing the whole day. And thanks God we are having a very good weather here in Brighton and that is good and that allows me to be happy while I spent my time walking around on the streets.

I met people at the breakfast thing of the Caravan. It is the fist day and there were speeches of presentation. Politicians always have to remained us all the things they do for us. As if it is not enough that there is not way we can make the leap from being a poor theatre company to be a normal payed theatre company.  At the en of the day everything is difficult and when they talk about giving money to theatre companys they never forget about the amount of money that costs to pay them and their big organisations. I do not want to do the revolution but for a while in the middle of all that people I felt as if I was cattle, you know cows and bulls and sheeps being bought and deal with. So all those people make lots of money just by making dealins with theatre companies and theatres and festivals. 

In a way it has always been like that not just with us but with everything. Let think for example in a potato. A potato per se has never been really expensive what is has been expensive is the amount of money they do by tradeing with them they make the money and we the potatoes do not have enough money to buy one of us. 

   Hey, it is a nice play on words, Cal is back. We have been rehearshing a number for a Cabaret that Amy is doing in the roundhouse in the summer. We and many other artists will be playing at a cabarert show the first three weekends of August. And that means that there are going to be shows from thursday to Sunday everyweek. It is going to be nice thou I have to say I am not an enthusiast of Cabaret things because they do not really have a story. It is a very nice form of entertainment and people really enjoy them but I am a little bit old fashion and I like more to see a good and very well told story.In any case to go back to work with Cal has been great. We have been laughing a lot with the two little and stupid numbers that we have been rehearshing. In both numbers our funs would be able to recognised old things from the shows and both of them would be incredibly wild and dangerous. So I just can not wait to go and do the numbers to see what happens. 

  It happens to me sometimes that I get a little bit shoft. I am a hard person, very tough and strong like a rock but from time to time I have those moments when I fell a little bit “Vanilla”. You know what I mean? it is like a think of my friends. I think of people that have not seen for a very long time and that I miss. People that when I am with them I fell happy and that when I am not with them and I am having fun I would like them to be with me.And today it is one of those days. So I thought about people that I have not seen for a long time and I felt how my eyes were getting a little bit watery and I surprised myself smiling for not aparent reason. I tried to get rid of that thought in my head but thou it did go for a while a little bit later it came back to me. And there I was walking in the middle of a city and smiling thinking of friends and of moments where I have been having lots of fun with them and whising they would have been there with me walking in that city so I could tell them how happy I was to be their friend. 

 So we have been for a weekend at the Caravan. This is a thing where companies and artists from many different places around the South East of England. We had to present something so we could get a little bit of money for our new and coming project called  Moby Dick. It was all really stressful. We really thought it was going to be really easy but then when the time came it was not. My mouth was dry and I could not really articulate anything. The one that was talking all the time was Toby. We said that we will talk to each others and we will give chances to share what we had to tell the delegates and the different people that had gathered to listen what many of us had to say.

And then it is then it is that moment when we had to be funny, when you  have to do something funny that people will remember afterwards.

As we left the Caravan and we had finished our pitch everybody was leaving with the felling that the whole thing had gone quite well.

Later on having a drink in the bar and someone was looking at us and making faces about is. It is difficult to get happy with stupidity and well we better learn to be live with the fact that may people think that to be stupid is stupid.

       I do understand now why Paris is called the city of light. It is an amazing place where there is light all over the place. When the sun is out the city becomes incredibly alive. I do not get tired of being on the streets and walk around and sit in all those great bistros where you feed your stomach and you feed your soul by looking at the people that walks around you all the time.Like sitting in this caffee outside Abbesses tube station and staying there stucked to your chair. The bistro is not great and the caffee is not great. If you want to eat they have four choices if you want to drink the do not sell alcohol so they only thing you can really have is a nice view of the people that comes down from Montmatre or the beautiful girls that go up from Pigalle.In any case everybody is atractive and pretty with a very strong and rude personality. We got a very nice waiter that Petra decided that he would be her next husband. Stephan saw the woman of her dreams and I thought I can not decided between many diferent girls so I wanted all and Toby was really upset by the way a homless was playing his saxophon at the church in front of the bistro.Paris is very good hopefully we will work there for a little while in the future. 

       “I know that you will be able to read this even if I send it at 4 am as you have “non-performance related insomnia”. You explained the classic symptoms in your blog: Hiatus in performing routine Predilection for reading successful performers bioglaphies which leads to delusions of grandeur and day dreams. Unstable mental state And the worst symptom of all: rampant spelling and syntax errors! So being an experience Dental Surgeon with a BDSc and 2 year degree in Lecoqology, I feel I am qualified write you the following pharmaceutical script: Rx: Prolonger immersion in an agitated brine solution while lying prostrate on a waxy fibreglassed surface. Repetitions of rapid bilateral shoulder articulations with arms fully covered in the briney solution followed by timely push-ups and legs quats. Periodic adrenalin injections and rectal spasms naturally induced by the visual stimulus of oversized masses of briney solution rearing on the horizon. Rx: 2 bd or 1 tid (ie These therapy sessions should be at least 1.5 hrs duration and repeated at least 2 times a day or prefferably 3 times. After 2 days, sleep with be profound and spontaneous.”This was sent to me by my new doctor. A really nice man that read my screams for help in my blog. I am not following his instruction and waiting for a very fast recovery. Thanks again.