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But the thing is that there is not like a huge difference at least for me in what I do during the week and what I do during the weekend. I suppose I get contagious with what other people do and fell about it. It is true that on Friday night when I am out I see that people are more euphoric, there is a twinkle in their eyes that says that they are happy and that everything ahead is fun and nothing to do with work. There is other who does not have that twinkle in their eyes and it means they have to work in the morning. Some of them probably have professions like mine, the kind of professions that you work when everybody else is enjoying and resting.

So while my lovely wife has the special twinkling in her eyes I do not seem impress at all because they day I had seems very similar to the one I had yesterday and the one I will have tomorrow and after tomorrow. It is all up to me. I may even work more on the weekends than during the day because I fell more inspired and I do lots. And perhaps one day in the middle of the week I fell really lazy, like super lazy and I do not move myself from my bed at all.

So, yes, the weekend for me is more than anything an opportunity to see my friends who have normal jobs. Yesterday my friend Dany came to say hello. We have not seen him for a while. He spends the summer in another town and you just see him from time to time. So, we asked him and told him how he was and long time no see. He said to us “not very well today” “my father has died”. We were flabbergasted. We could not believe it. It does not happen very often that someone comes to you and tells you my father just died. But it was like that. They were coming back from the beach with his mum and his mum was a little bit pissed off that her husband had not go to pick her up from the beach as he always did. When they arrived home they found him lying dead in the bathroom. He had had a heart attack.

Our accommodation in Amsterdam has arrived. They have searched for four flats to accommodate the four of us. Two of the flats must have an extra room for the ones who have family that would come to spend some time with them and the other two are single bedroom flats.

Kattegat, Kemperst, Nornolaan, Fokke Simon are the four streets. I believe the idea is that we look at the pictures of flats and then we choose the ones we like and if we do not like them they will be looking for something else. We are going to spend five months in that country so we better have a flat that really pleases us.

All the flats seem really nice and well located. I do not want to be very close to the tent where we are working. It will fell as if I am working all the time and it is nice to be somewhere else and go back and forth to that work place.

So I have chosen one that is closer to town so I have proper neighbours and all the rest.

I also tried to choose the same one as Petra wanted so I could have a little bit of a fight but then I understood from her mail or my paranoia that she was not very much up for having a fight so I choose the other one.

Stephan is still in Cornwell with on e-mails and Toby is in Germany so he has chosen one already. I want to stay in a nice flat in a nice place but my theory is that there is so much information you can get unless you know the area and even then you never know what is going to happen.

I am eating too much. The thing is that the food here is very good. I try to do exercise with my bike and with surfing and with other things but it does not stop me from eating like a pig and … well, let me tell you about the drink. I drink quite a lot mainly in the afternoon and it is making me to become a bomb of fat.

How exciting is to have a theatre company¡¡ I remember the beginnings of Spymonkey. We did our first work together in France; in Valence at the house Toby’s mum has in there. We had such a great time. That was the only thing we did there and of course to come up with a name but everything else we did there did not help to the show or to the company. Saying that everything is important for the creation of the company. In that week that we spent in France we got to know each other’s just as the company. We did not know there that we were going to be Spymonkey and that things were going to work like that.

Later on with our first tour with Stiff we got to know each other much better in the thought times.

My memories tell me that I was such inconsciente of what was happening and of what we were creating. I do not know if the others were really clued up of what we were doing. I fell they were not. And probably that is the way to go. You just keep doing it for the fun and then one day you start to realise what are the things that build a company.

So now with Coloniales y Salazones, my alternative project to Spymonkey for when I am in Spain nothing is like with Spymonkey. My colleges are not in that for the fun. They are doing Coloniales y Salazones to make money and work a lot and create very interesting work. I think we are forgetting about the fun and we will pay the price later on.

So we had a meeting this morning because not everybody is sure of what we are doing. And that is a problem. It is fine to have doubts but if one of the members is not sure and is create a lastre for the going forward of the project is better to stop then and there and throw all the lastre trough the board.

The meeting was emotionally intense but successful. I am excited about doing this because it may mean that I start to get some work in Spain and nothing will please me more.

I have promised to myself to start to go out cycling today but I do not know when that is going to happen. I am a lazy bastard.

I went to see my parents. I think I told all of you something like this before. I try to see my parents as much as I can nowadays. For many years I have been living away from them. Thanks to their help and support I have been able to live in other places and had the live that I have now. So I decided sometime ago that thou many times they irritate me I was going to try to pleases them and to make them happy. I know that one of the things that make them happy is for me to go and visit them. So thou they are in Noja now, and Noja is one hour away from here I do the driving and the effort and because Miren is working I spent the day with my parents there by the beach I eat with them and then I go back home and spent the best part of the evening with Miren.

We have eaten today with some friends of my parents that I know since I was born. She is a hairdresser and he is a philosophy teacher now retired. They are really good people. They have three children with the same ages as me and my brother and sister. That does not make much sense, no? What I mean is that they have three kids who are the same ages as my brother and my sister and one of them is younger.

Anyway, we had a lovely lunch and I told Luisi the Hairdresser that I needed a wig for the show in Amsterdam and that I had a budget and that I was going to get an appointment with her to try out and fit the wig and build it so.

I do not know why I am saying this… and also I can fell a flop in my story. Sorry I leave now.

I have arrived to Bilbao this morning. Now is the evening and still I do not know very well where I am. You do not what I mean? I was this morning somewhere else and now I am in this place that looks very familiar but fells completely foreign.

I arrived to Bilbao and now all this goings and comings have become so common that no one comes to pick me up from the airport. In the pass when I left or I arrive it was like an event and my father or my mother or friends will take me to the airport and when I was coming back they used to come to pick me up but now I have to take the bus to Bilbao and the tube to Romo. It is not too bad but the dramatic entrance is not anymore successful but of someone that comes back home in the most normal way.

I had to drag my back that by the way is completely destroyed all the way back home and travel for an extra hour to make it to my flat.

My wife was not there. This is another thing that has change. In the pass Miren was not working so whenever I was coming home she was there or at least she was able to change something so she could almost be there when I arrive and then we will have like a honeymoon. This time Miren is working so she was not back until 7:30 or later.

I do not like this. I am not anymore the most important person in this house and I do not like it. Why?  Do not answer, please, I know the answer, that why it was just a childish cry for attention.

As I said it was very weird to say good-bye yesterday. I really enjoyed very much everybody yesterday but I did not know how to say good-bye so I went without a proper bye to everybody. I got to say farewell to some people but still it was not the very nice and friendly.

I had to go and drive a van to Muswell hill for next day things to do so I could not drink or do any other things that I like doing.

I woke up really early. I drove really early to Small Dole. By pure chance Tanya was awake and she came to help with the unloading of the van. We were finished, well we were not finished because I am from Spain and Tanya is Irish. It is a joke.

We did all the work in twenty minutes and then we chat for a while. I had time. I had to be in Gatwick to return the van for 1 o’clock and it was something like 10:30.

Tanya is really nice and since she is working for Spymonkey all that niceness has spread through all the things that Spymonkey does. I do not think we hired her just because she is nice. As a production manager we have not met many people as good as her. She is on top of everything all the time.The thing I like is that she always has a little bit of time to chat. I am not the chattiest person in the world but when I see other people chatting like Tanya and I see that they are having tones of fun and fell jealous so I wanted to chat too.

I had the chance to chat with Tanya for a while and really it was very good fun. She makes you fell that what you say it is important for her, which is why she is great. Yes, she listens and makes you fell that you have discovered for her something really important.

I do not remember what did we talk about but it was very nice. We chatted in front of the container, standing up and with the wind blowing. We stopped when the rain arrived.

I drove behind her to the M23 and I waved to her farewell.

Next time in England is on the 17^th September to prepare for Cooped in Leicester Square on the 23^rd and 24^th. Come and see us.

The last time we do these numbers at the Round House this year is here. I have to say I am really looking forward to do the last show. It is not because I am bored or I do not like what we do or simply I do not like the show or Amy. No, I like Amy very much she is great. It is something to do whit farewell that I do not do very well. Whenever the time to go and say good-bye comes I start to fell really sensitive and it makes me fell uneasy. I am not very good at saying good byes. It has never satisfied me. I cannot deal with that felling that I good-bye leaves you. You say good-bye, you kiss and you wave your hand while you look at the person that you are saying goodbye and you keep looking at the person until you have to turn around. In that moment, once you have toured around the image of that person stay in your mind, and in my case very soon after a roll of images like in a movie start to pass through my head. I see that person in different moments of the last times we have spent together and it makes me fell really sad.

Then I try to fill up my mind with more immediate things like where I am going, when is the bus coming? What do I have to do tomorrow? But even like that the image of that person or those persons keep coming into my mind

I have done it many times; I have said good-bye to many people many times. And even after all these times still it is very painful so I am sure I am not going to be able to say good bye properly and I will be felling really occur and I will fell sad and emotional and …. I will end up going away without saying good-bye to no one.

Caroline is a girl that plays the Ukulele and sings songs and it is a Stand up comedian. She is really pretty. She has joined the show the last week and two nights ago we share a taxi and it was really nice at least for me. Then last night I had a smoke and took me super long for my taxi to come and she was waiting with me for the taxi that I had ordered and… I was really thick. I could not talk and I was really boring. Some times with people I like I cannot react normally. Not that I am really normal but… Anyway I like Carolina and if you have the chance you should go and see her perform her stand up. Her character is called Lady Caroline.

We did the show with Rich and it was exciting. We were nervous it was the first time for him and it was the first time for us in front of the stage so we did well and we were very happy. Then for the next show when nobody could do anything for us to be happy just before the show was about to start someone came in saying the Bill Murray was in the audience. That made is go a little bit crazy.

Toby had not call or sent a message wandering how thing were going and now when I have arrived home there was a mail saying that last night after the party went to the flat he had been staying in Bayswater and it was full of people. The people there were from Australia so he had to wander through the west end all the way back to Angel to his other’s friend place and then he had to wake up really early to pick up the flight to Germany. So he must has had the most tiring wedding party of his life.

And he was so happy in that apartment overlooking Hyde Park. He really made his own place of it. I mean, being in somebodielse’s apartment is sometimes a little bit difficult. We all have different techniques to make the place more cosy, to claim ownership even if we are just going to stay there for a couple of days.

In a hotel room the first thing I do is to take off my shoes and dump them were they land. Toby has a more physical approach to it. It is not easy to do what he does but certainly makes the place his own. It is all about letting your animal instincts to come out and express whom you are. It is about to be happy or the happiest to where ever you are.

So I recommend you to make yourself at home wherever you are and where ever you go. It will make your connection with the place stronger and also it will allow you to fell better with all the other things you may have to do in that place. So things like going back to your new temporarily home really late at night and finding that there are lots of Australians and you have to go somewhere else to sleep will never happen.

I am very proud of the pictures I put in my blob. I choose them very carefully and my mind there is always I relationship with the things I am talking about.

So I wan going through the pictures and I asked Petra what did she think about my blog? She told me that she just looks at the pictures but that she does not read it anymore because I never said anything interesting.

She said that I spend my time in my blob writing about my pooh or about my flat or about the way my toilet is dirty.

And I have to say that it is true. One of the difficulties of writing this blob everyday is to come up with thing that peoples my find interesting. I know that life is very interesting but some days when the night comes you do not even want to go through the days in your mind again. It has been a very boring day so why would you suddenly give it another go in your head. And now we are heading to the end of the run. Toby is going tomorrow to Germany for a weeding and he is not doing the last three shows so Rich is going to be doing them. Rich is a performer that works for us in the pass. He plays Pierce Murdston every time we do Cooped in London. He is very nice and he has been real kind rehearsing with us more time that it was necessary.

Toby has been walking around here like headless chicken during the whole day because I think is getting to him the fact that he is not going to be here for the end of the run. I would be. It happens to all of us, not to Stephan, we do not like missing anything.

Yesterday there was a big accident in Madrid. A plane crashed and on a plane with 172 passengers 153 died. The images on the TV were horrible. It felt really sad and scary to take plane. And today that is exactly what I did. I went to the airport in the morning and got my fly to London as if nothing has happened. And in fact nothing happened in the fly everything was normal and great. Perhaps in the voice of the airhostess you could hear a little bit more sensitivity and a little bit more carefulness.

As we were leaving the plane in Gatwick the passengers on my fly got the phones out and called their families at home to reassure them that they have arrived to their destiny and that the plane was not drown in the middle of the sea.

There is something ridiculous about crashing with a plane. People killed themselves with cars almost everyday. They go out and 90% of the time they have accidents because they drive really bad and mad and thou everybody is disgust with the situation there are not big reactions like with the planes. And then something like this happen and the possibility of flying gets once again in doubt.

We had a show and it was not very happy show both because a friend from many people in the cast had an accident and died. She was a trapeze artist.

We had a funny show. Tanya and Beth with a friend were in the audience. They are great and it is always very good fun to see them. There is not time this week for silly things because Toby is going on Saturday to Germany for a weeding and Rich is going to be doing the show and we are tired and we want to stop and go on holydays. We are going to be playing in Holland for five months and that is not going to be